There’s a Hole in my Sidewalk
by Portia Nelson

Chapter 1.
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost…I am helpless.
It isn’t my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

Chapter 2.
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don’t see it.
I fall in again.
I cant believe I am in this same place.
But it isn’t my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

Chapter 3.
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in… its a habit.
But, my eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

Chapter 4.
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

Chapter 5.
I walk down another street.

I am so sad...
I am so mad...

I don't care!
but I care so much it hurts...

I should do something...
I need to do something...
I don't know what to do!

Mind your own business...
You can't just sit back and do nothing...

I just want to quit...
I don't want to do this anymore...

I can't quit...
That's not fair to those left behind...
It'll make things worse...

I hate this world...
I'm going back to bed.

30....

I wish that I had more of the things that really matter in life
I wish I had meaningful relationships
I wish I had a dream
I wish I had plans
I wish I had a direction
I wish that I knew where I wanted to be...
at least then there would be a chance in hell that I would get there.

I need to find a way to make these things happen
and wish I wasn't so scared to try

People tend to continue to do what they have always done because even if they hate it they know what to expect... and I hate that because I don't like what I'm doing

I don't want to look back on my life and feel so unfulfilled

I don't want to be where I am now at 40